Back
in July I began writing this post. You
see, I want to walk the walk I talk about.
Surrender is something that is constantly on my heart and mind.
Our
first example of someone who surrenders all is Jesus. He left His heavenly kingdom for 33 years to
come here to teach us how to live a surrendered and obedient life.
I do not
understand what I do
for what I
want to do I do not do,
but what I hate
to do. Romans 7:15
This scripture verse seems
to be exactly what of my lack of surrender looks like. We all strive to read scripture and we become
what we know. But it’s a posture we have
to maintain, and I hate to admit it, I seem to fall out of that posture
especially in my relationships with others lately.
I
have to learn to surrender these relationships to the Lord. I can’t help but attempt to surrender them,
but find myself trying again to make them work the way I think they
should. And I end up having hurt
feelings.
I
have spent a few months exploring surrender and obedience, because I believe
they go hand-in-hand. If I surrender
something to God, I have to leave it in His hands. There’s no take backs!
My
bible has more dates and issues written in it next to this Psalm. It’s been a go-to Psalm when I am struggling
with letting go. But it gives me so much
reassurance when I come here because just look at what we receive when we
surrender:
He will make
your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday
sun. (6)
But the meek
will inherit the land and enjoy peace and prosperity. (11)
The
blameless spend their days under the LORD’s care, and their inheritance will
endure forever. (18)
…those the
LORD blesses will inherit the land, but those He curses will be destroyed. (22)
The LORD
makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him; though he may stumble, he
will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with His hand. (23-24)
I was young
and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their
children begging bread. They are always
generous and lend freely; their children will be a blessing. (25-26)
Turn from
evil and do good, then you will dwell in the land forever. For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake
His faithful ones. (27-28)
The righteous
will inherit the land and dwell in it forever. (29)
The mouths
of the righteous utter wisdom, and their tongues speak what is just. The law of their God is in their hearts,
their feet do not slip. (30-31)
Hope in the
LORD and keep His way. He will exalt you
to inherit the land when the wicked are destroyed, you will see it. (34)
Consider the
blameless, observe the upright, a future awaits those who seek peace. (37)
The
salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD; He is their stronghold in time
of trouble. The LORD helps them and
delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they
take refuge in Him. (39-40)
This
last verse has become my focus on the surrender of these relationships that
have been difficult to let go of – God is my refuge. He is the umbrella that protects me from my
own feelings of being hurt. He is the
umbrella that protects me from my own pride when I think they should go my way. And He will not let me fall!
